Frank, Fireflyr is right, never forget to open your eyes and appreciate what is around you. even small, there is always something, and if you look at it, it will give you a spark of hope. My reason are completely different to yours, since I became the gloomiest person you could encounter on earth, after that I unexpectedly came out of a relationship that had given me the chance “to see the world in a grain of sand, and heaven in a wildflower, to hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and eternity in one hour” (it’s not me, it’s Blake, even if I would be happy to say I wrote it!!). In no way I want to diminish the turns of bad luck you have had and you're having, by comparing my situation to yours, but once you’re 36 floors under – whatever the reason – and bad things line up, one after the other, making everything unbearable, you can just approach the problems, one after the other and do your best to solve them...In the middle of my fight, I read a sentence that states that you just get what you can be expected to be able to fight. that means that, even if it is difficult, and even if it's big trouble; if the problems are there, it's because you can find the power to fight them. I’m not a believer of any sort, my faith ends out of myself, but at that time I decided to believe in that, maybe just because it worked as a boost. And, gosh, it worked! And maybe it will work for you too. just make a plan a start from the smallest things. and if you have 10 problems, approach one after the other, starting from the one you can do something about. You’ll soon see that the packages of bad things in front of you start dropping. And one day you’ll see the small quantity left and start laughing and realize you’re on the battleground again and from one battle to another, you will just gain confidence. Remember that the city of Troy was taken after 10ish years of battles, after that the troops outside of it had been decimated by the wrath of a God, but they went home with the treasure of the king! Good Luck!
