Thanks for the nice words, I was a big concerned it might be too much at once to tell.
Happy: I've already tried looking at working at the computer and that's why I'm dreaming of working with computergames/sims since some of my natural talents and hobbies lends itself well to that but I need to get the stuff learnt and while Microsoft released a top-professions program-compiler for free also for commercial usage and I've bought now 4 books on game programming plus I got a BIG physics-book and a C++ programming book from my engineering-college-days then I still need some things shown in practical examples and ways where I can try things for myself to give it the last nudge to sink in. I've already got several game-concepts that doesn't (shouldn't) offend any copyrtighted trademarks and doesn't use bloody violence like most games out there and offers many experiences I've gathered from 15 years of computergaming and my own creative ideas mixed with suggestions from gamer-friends etc. The only thing is that 3DS Max, The Standard in 3D modeling and animation for both games and some movies costs a heck of a lot of money, and while I'm sure it's worth the money and I do indeed only want to use licensed legally bought software then it'll take some time to save up for, in fact it costs even more than a round-trip ticket to USA last I checked, and there is just one version, not even a stripped version which would have more than plenty for my usage, but oh well, I got no debts and doesn't use much money for food or clothing so I can probably save up for it, sometime.
If someone here knows of a book or a program that shows in simple terms how to make a program that responds in a 3D world to coontroller input then I'd love to see it since the books I got mainly show theory and while it's great then my mind needs to learn by doing as well, afterwards then I can easily think as abstract as a coconut riding a comet but until then I'm lost, the expression "so close yet so far away" comes to mind.
Zaizai: Actually, my concern about automatics is that it'll get anything but boring in a case where I need a clutch, or where I have to react on instict because there's no time for anything else and then left foot goes for the clutch and right foot goes for the brake, and with no clutch then that could be a problem.
Jim: There are many stereotypes, but even in my own family I'm strange, and so was my dad actually so how would I compare to even people in the same small town let alone a whole country. However other people do indeed try to stereotype people into classes but at least it's not always with evil intentions.
One stereotype my mom experienced was that americans often say: stop by anytime, but they don't really mean it, it's an empty gesture where in DK we'd only say it if we want them to stop by. Another one is that americans look a lot at classes: what's your education, how much money do you make, what kind of car do you drive. Things that that in my mind doesn't really necessarily describe who you are, but then again if it's not by evil intention then I don't get mad about it, unlike people showing hatred for all of the same group even if not all people actually behave like that person thinks they do.
I just know that all people are different and I try to keep an open mind, especially in forums where I know, sadly from experince as super moderator in the biggest racing game forum around, RaceSim Central, that one single spelling error or incorrect grammer can cause giant hating flamewars, a lot of trouble based on something that actually didn't exist, similar things btw happend in real life and is often the cause of trouble. That's sad in a way, to fight over a misunderstanding but then both parties get mad and then the argument gets a foundation in itself. After being depressed for years and not knowing who I was and where I belonged and how I could function in the world. I know that now, and I feel so enlightend about it, and I got tired of concentrating on bad things and want to enjoy all the wonderous things in the world, and I don't even smoke or drink alchohol or coffee, I enjoy music, looking at nature sometimes, being alive, Chicken Wings, cars, planes, driving, playing games. I follow my mood instead of trying to force myself to do things I'm not in the mood for, but this only goes for things that aren't on a time-table like paying bills or going to the store shopping. It's hard to describe but it works. Now all I'm depressed about is that I can't get that one big step to get going in creating my life and making sure my mom is safe and comfortable.
Wow, this got a bit long, sorry about that, but then again if I remember correctly from the start then someone said they never read all of the long posts anyway hehe.
Greetings and goodnight, it's late here now. soon to become early.
Frank
